HiFelicia

December 1st 1987-August 14, 2025

idk how I made it through the day, I cried for most of it and the city did too. the weather was ugly & cold just like this world at times. I lost my friend august 14 2025. I never knew how he passed. Today I gained the courage to contact his family on his birthday. they were kind enough to tell me he passed in his sleep. they were kind enough to respond and thank me for the prayers. His sister even wished me a happy early birthday. I even responded to his baby on her post. I think I needed to connect with the people that loved him on his birthday. I was so emotional today. WE DONT ALWAYS HAVE TOMORROW. Tell people you love them today. now.

bobby had been released from prison after 5 years in May 2025. I knew he was away. my spirit always knew. I don’t know how to explain it. B was the type to establish his place in my life no matter what, no matter who was around, no matter what either of us had going. Life, kids, lovers, crime, he always found his way to crack smiles and jokes with me. Things seems so quiet when he was away. My soul/spirit always knew when he was put up and out the way. I would always be right on the verge of falling into him, into believing in us, especially after he asked me to be with him, but I knew we couldn’t be. Counterfeit money, manslaughter charges, drugs, kids, being locked up 5-10 minutes after dropping me off at home? in and out of jail? but he was a Sagittarius. Funny. Lit. Always happy. full of life. always smiling. honest ( I mean, still a man but at least would say nothing before he told a lie.) the biggest smile it the world. the best laugh. Masculine. genuine. loving. hood, rough the edges, but a get money man fa sho and a great father. idk how to put 12 years of friendship in one post. but I can say, my world is quieter with him gone. I feeeeeeeeeeeeeel his absence and its not in the same way it felt when he was away.

I wish I could show him my tattoo. “Bobby Da Great” with a Sag symbol. the arrow. going straight up. circling my breast, a place only for to see. Just like our memories and moments and love.August 14th I changed forever.Jul 21, the last time I saw him… I changed forever. I just didn’t know it yet. My heart goes out to his family. His energy was one of a kind.

When he got of jail, he came looking for me immediately. But I was in a relationship and I knew if I let Bobby in I was cheating, straight up. So I kept my distance. He didn’t care about double triple quadruple msg’n me lol.

Anyway… rip bobby. I love you so much and thank you for being in my life. The guilt I feel for being so guarded when he got out jail… like he was a stranger… I was afraid. I met him at age 23, I’m 35 now. I was afraid to fall back into him and lose him… and the fact that it happened anyway… I should’ve never held back. should’ve said “I love you too.” I should’ve kissed him when he asked me. Life comes at us fast. Enjoy and express and give love. Thank you God for the glimpse of what love could be.